Thrown a curve

Disease and permanent injury . . . . unfathomable, we cannot walk in the shoes of others suffering.  Living beside it brings it's own challenges.  Learning the way a disease works doesn't always help, support isn't always welcome!  Strain . . . fear . . . alone . . . crushing . . . when does it STOP, never!

Our landlord, a very caring, good man has said to me 'I respect you for taking care of and sticking by your husband'.  Inside I feel bad though because it's isolating and mentally challenging.  It doesn't stop, ever!  It does NOT make me stronger, sometimes I do want to run away!  Motivation is going backwards, dreams and goals evaporate in thin air.

Dark Days!

Had a few drastic days with Hubby in the hospital.  Learned about gastroparesis, the short of it is nerve damage to the blood vessels in the stomach.  With to much acid, the stomach will shut down and not digest food.  Between this and ketoacidosus, one's health can be severely compromised.  We know someone who lost their life to this.  If you have diabetes, please be aware of these conditions.  He is always battling to control it..............no fun!  Getting back to normal, so hard to watch and feel so helpless!